My last photo was two days before New Years, and ever since then I've been trying to capture something that would catch my eye. It's funny, I shouldn't be trying, it should come to me like usual. I always run into things obliviously and suddenly an idea pops into my head, seeing how I'm able to represent what I'm capturing in a total different perspective, and the image comes to me before I even take the picture. Despite my efforts of bringing my camera everywhere I go, it seems like something is changing. Perhaps it's my ability to think creatively and innovative-like in my past photos, or maybe my camera or lens are deteriorating (although I'm not so sure about that part). Or I just don't have photoshop LOL yep that's it :'D
I've been getting requests to do parties and balls and weddings, but I've had to decline most of them because I was afraid the qualities of the pictures would not satisfy my clients. As for the recent shoots that I've done, I'm almost always cringing when I look closely at the photos. Like there's too much noise in the background and people's faces, there are white pixels appearing here and there and I have no idea how that's happening, and this is why I'm not a portrait photographer lol and I know how to use a camera, it's just that I feel like the things I currently have aren't enough. I need different flashes, I need backdrops, I need lightboxes, a remote, new lenses, filters, etc. My camera alone isn't enough. And since I don't have photoshop, I try not to overdo edits from Picmonkey and Photoplus because I noticed that they degrade the qualities in my pictures.

Recently, I've decided that I'll take a break and do my best to save up to get the things that can satisfy me in the things that I love doing, and I'm going big this time. Right now I have an $800 Nikon D5000. But I have my eyes on a $3000 Canon EOS Mark 5 iii. Plus Photoshop and Lightroom. But I can only keep praying that someone in this small community where I live will hire me.

So photography will be put aside until I have what I'm aiming for. As of now, I'll be focusing on my music.

Just recently, I almost thought that Atriad was over. We had just got done recording, mixing, and producing our demo for our Facebook page, and I kid you not just the day right after we were done, I thought our lead singer had quit the band. There was some tension between some of us and we had to tell one another what to improve in our songs so we sat down and came clean, and then our singer just totally left and hadn't answered our calls for a month. But after a whole month of constantly praying, we've gotten our singer back (with a new song he's currently writing), and a lot more than what we were praying for. We've been called to do a major gig at a famous venue called the Hawthorne Theater in Portland with 11 other local metal bands next month for Memorial Day. I'm really excited because this will be our first gig at an actual concert and we will get to experience going through a full sound check, with lights, mics, and monitors for each one of us and we get to hand out tickets! I've always seen people do that, but I never had thought I'd be on the other end lol. Not to mention that we might be playing at Creation Fest Northwest in Enumclaw and XFest in Stevenson in August.

All of this hard work in just a year is actually paying off

Perhaps I can post up my lyrics to make up for my lack of pictures this year?